The Intentional Life

A month in the life of the Suvar's.  A few pictures from it at least... A typical view of the living room...yeesh. Drinking water from the bathroom sink... Wrestling with daddy...but pause for a photo-op Enjoyed the summer weather in March - loving the froggy boots! Building forts with chairs and sheets - and you have to have a cookie to go with it! Owen learned to ride his bike with no training wheels.  Now he wants to ride everywhere. To the store. To the library. To grandma's. $1 Easter hat at Target.  Perfect for the hat-loving 2 year old We told Hannah she could get a bike basket and helmet if she starts riding her bike.  She is motivated...kinda.

Tonight my heart feels heavy. I feel like it is a number of things that is weighing it down at the moment.  A number of things that all relate to each other but that I can't necessarily type on here - to protect those that I serve. Questions that I keep rolling around in my head are "Why?  Why do I do this work?  Why do I pour all my care and energy into a bunch of teenagers who don't always welcome it and would rather be around someone other than me?  Why do I get up each morning and throw myself into this ministry only to have sticks and stones hurled at me in any number of ways?  Why do I keep giving them the same Message over and over, hoping for change, but not always seeing it?" I guess because I have been asked to. God has asked each one of us to share His message of salvation and to care for those less fortunate. Even if they don't want it. We may not always see the results of our sewing of seeds.  But God does not ask us for RESULTS... ...

I feel like I haven't had a lot to say lately.  I've had a lot of thoughts rolling around in my head but nothing that really formulated into something that could be put into words. At least not enough words to make a post about it. But maybe as I type something will come about. I thought about how gorgeous the weather has been these last few weeks and how we have gotten a glimpse of summer a few months early.  Summer with school still going on, which means I get to enjoy the outdoors with my little kids during the school day without the added responsibility of the big kids. And by enjoying this time with my kids I have to remind myself to live in the moment.  Enjoy this moment.  So many of my moments are spent thinking about other moments - ones that have already happened or ones that are to come. And I lose the joy of moment that I am in. I think about how God wants us to enjoy our moments in the now, but with an ever present thought of eternity.  E...

Between Owen being at preschool and Maddie taking her nap, I had a couple of uninterrupted hours with Hannah this afternoon.  We spent quite a bit of the time outside enjoying the spring-like weather.  But, you know, one must break for a spot of afternoon tea.  We had a few extra guests with us but the service was excellent and the atmosphere couldn't have been better.  Seems like just yesterday I was doing this with my dolls.  So glad I have a daughter to share it with now.

Sometimes I am a creature of community. Sometimes I am a creature of solitude. Which one is right? Is either one wrong? I have taken those personality tests and some have labeled me an introvert, some an extrovert. I'm not really sure which one I am. I had heard at a conference I went to once that a true extrovert gets their energy and rejuvenation from being around people, and the introvert gains theirs from being alone.  I like being around people.  I like feeling like I am a part of something.  I don't even have to engage in a conversation, I just like to be surrounded by people. But there are times that my mind is just calling for some solitude.  I often feel guilty about this.  Like I am supposed to want to be around people all the time.  But God calls His children to take some alone time. We've all talked about it.  Done it. Devotions.  Meditation on His Word.  Time in prayer. Whatever you may call it.  I think ...